The test for selfish ambition {#DreamChaser series}

Last week, we talked about the often-misunderstood Biblical directive to avoid selfish ambition.

(Read: Is my dream selfish ambition?)

As a godly dream chaser, the very phrase “selfish ambition” strike fear into my heart. I spent many years fearing my dream was selfish, to the point of not moving forward with the dream God had laid on my heart.

(Read: Giving My Specific Dream to God)

Today, though I have come to a much clearer understanding of what it means to “do nothing out of selfish ambition,” (Philippians 2:3) I still routinely check myself and my pursuits against the selfish ambition test. Continue reading “The test for selfish ambition {#DreamChaser series}”

Is my dream selfish ambition? {#DreamChaser series}

Selfish ambition.

No words strike fear into the heart of this godly dream chaser quite like those two. The Bible warns against doing anything out of selfish ambition (Philippians 2:3). For me, this instruction is as emotion-packed as the “submissive wife” one, and is equally misinterpreted.

For many years, I believed my dream of making a living from writing was selfish. Convinced of it, actually. Continue reading “Is my dream selfish ambition? {#DreamChaser series}”

Being me, bravely {Welcome to my new blog home}

March 1, 2017. Let this go down as a date which will live in my heart forever.

Friends, I am delighted to share this momentous day with you.

Today is the day I officially launch a blog under MY OWN NAME. This is my fourth blog, but the first in which I used my own, legal name. No hiding behind awesome titles or themes. This is all me, front and center.

This is the day in which I publicly, without shame, guilt or any other form of captivity, stand in the face of my fear and say, “Be gone!”

This is the day in which I publicly declare my freedom from the fear to be fully and bravely ME. Continue reading “Being me, bravely {Welcome to my new blog home}”

Does what I do even matter to anyone?

 

Babylon Bee, my favoritist tongue-in-cheek news site, shared an article on their Facebook page earlier this week that especially tickled me. The title: “Pastor Labors All Weekend On Church Blog Post Approximately Four People Will End Up Reading.”

Did you laugh?

So did I. I laughed because it is TRUE.

I saw myself in the pastor’s shoes. My goodness, I feel exactly this way every single week. I could have coffee daily with this emotion we are so tight.

I pour time, energy – and, yes, money – into this blog. I care DEEPLY about it. But, inevitably, as the words tumble onto the screen each week, the question poking at my emotional core is, “Does this even matter?” Continue reading “Does what I do even matter to anyone?”

The Advantage of Rejection

You’re “not the right fit.” I think the first time I heard those words was from my boycrush in junior high. I had just slipped him a note. It was humiliating. Of course, I heard it a few more times from a few more boys since, as well as from more than a few potential employers (apparently I did not have what it took to be a Subway “sandwich artist”).

Last week I got one of the toughest rejections of my life. From a publisher.

For those who don’t know, I have several journalism, poetry and nonfiction credits, including a Lou Gehrig biography, but I have yet to break into my true love of fiction. From the time I was 12 I’ve wanted to be a novelist. After years of stop-start and immeasurable encouragement from others, I finally completed a manuscript and found a publisher interested in looking at it. Continue reading “The Advantage of Rejection”